Day 245

Yesterday I had a tough day...I was sick of not being active, sick of the pain, frustrated at not being able to run, I felt bloated and blurgh. I was frustrated at people looking all happy saying 'I ran 10k today' or 'I just registered for an adventure race' (please note this is not a direct stab at anyone). I was so furious at not being able to claim my body. I am limited by pain and have to work within the pain threshold. Somedays it is an effort to even walk. I mean to say I was frustrated, but not at any one person, just at my situation. 

Then...I take my client to visit a friend (also with a disability and weighing well over 100kgs), whom I hear mutter behind her hand...Megs' looks fat, she looks like she's pregnant. Oh what a day to hear those words! I was having a 'fat' day anyway. I already didn't like my body...but to hear that...I thought...sheesh, maybe I have put on some weight. Then I looked at the situation, two quite overweight people saying me (58kgs) was 'fat'. Then I started to laugh. 

It is funny how sometimes you are so down on yourself and your situation that you forget to look at the bigger picture...are you alive and have friends and family that love you? Even if you can't run a marathon or an adventure race? You betcha! And sometimes it takes an awkward or preposterous situation to knock your senses back in!! 

So today, whilst not running, or even walking (bad pain today), I hold my head high and say...yep I have some weight around the middle and am not as toned as I once was, but know that I am doing everything in my power to be the best person I can be in an uncontrollable situation. 

Next time you feel like judging someone, or saying something about their physical appearance, perhaps you should stop and ask them instead how they are going. 

...Until Tomorrow xox

Day 244

I read this quite often and I love it...

Mindful Schools

A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: "How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything."

Remember to put the glass down.

(Courtesy of Jimmy Harmon)

Food for thought...how much weight are you carrying around? Can you set it down occaisionally to have a break? (I guess this is what mindfulness, or meditation allows us to do!) Just remember that everyone has their own glass.

...Until Tomorrow xox

Day 243

My computer went kaput for 2 weeks! Now I have it back, be ready for all my epiphany's whilst I couldn't write...

1. I think dicitonary's should add words into the list once your phone auto-corrects your own made-up ones!

2. Never go to a NEW shopping centre when you are busting for the toilet

3. Always bring extra

4. Keep receipts and photocopy them, particularly important things

5. Eat every three hours to make sure you don't eat like a trojan (or naughty things)

6. Do what makes your heart sing...not ride the 

wave's of someone else's success

7. Life can be cut short in an instant, appreciate the little things...sun on your face, a wag of your dogs tail, bbq with family, phone call from friends

8. You can get more done when you are expecting visitors (or have a shorter timeframe!)

9. 'Busy' is a state of mind..not what is packed into your diary

10. Can you say you have saved money if it gets spent as soon as you reach your goal target??

11. You can get many opinions of something, yet the only one you should trust is the opinion you form yourself!

12. Always take a travel mug

...Until Tomorrow xox