Day 249

Today I realised its been awhile. Life has taken off in full force. My businesses are going nuts and when I'm not 'working' on the ground I am developing databases, timelines, plans, networking etc. I've let some things slide...not because I want to, but because they are not quite the priority or what is making me think! But sometimes in life you don't always need to finish things immediately. I will continue on this blog - and on another (for dogs!) more regularly. 

You know what hit me tonight? I play words with friends, mainly with my mum and we have about 100 games going. Great fun. It's now about who can play the highest word, as opposed to who wins at the end, less about wanting to beat the other person and more about beating your previous score. That's how life should be. Less about 'winning' the big if picture and more about enjoying the thrill of the here and now. I admit I am one to get caught up in the bigger picture.. Is this what I want forever?! But no, you don't need to know what you want FOREVER you just need to be happy with what you are RIGHT now! 

What are your daily reminders to enjoy today? What makes today the 'highest score yet'?!

...Until Tomorrow xox

Day 248

Today I ran 1.2km first time since my accident - relatively pain free. A HUGE step in my recovery. For those who have been listening to me for the past 18months, can understand the importance of this for me. 

My life over the past 18months has been up and down and sometimes sideways. It's not so much about the physical or emotional aspects, but on the whole, tiring ordeal. I think sometimes we forget how quickly our bodies adapt to change, yet we are left behind emotionally. I have learnt so much over this time - about myself, about change and also about PACING - not getting what you want straight away just because you want it. 

It's interesting how when you want something so bad, people say you can get it. What they neglect (or perhaps even know) is that you may get it, but it can take some serious time and effort chipping away toward the end goal. Also whilst you are doing that the end goal might of changed! I always want to get back into running - so that aspect hasn't changed a great deal, what has changed is my mindset and my method of doing so. Instead of running 6 months ago (which I could, but was in a lot of pain), I took my time building up strength in my legs, working at things I knew I could do - slowly.

Frustratingly slowly. But the time spent building up my strength has made the joy today so much sweeter. Oh there were times on the run where I was wondering whether I wanted to stop because of knee pain, or because of 'mental' pain (thinking there was pain but there wasn't). Needless to say I pushed through. 

The saying 'no-one said it would be easy' is definitely true, mental strength and stamina is needed...for all things in life. How much do you want it? How long are you ready to chip away at it? 

...Until Tomorrow xox